Thankyou for being always willing to be there for u despite everything.

Jwee, thankyou so much, really.
pls jy in wdv u got, soccer and all.
U uh.. silly little naughty friend of mine.
&&! big blue says hi! he wants u to do well too uhh!!

school's a bitch.
stupidly itchy bitchy bitch.
screwed up totally... zZZ

Mentally exhausted.

i dont know how long more i can hang on for.
lk what happened ytd, i ended up not studying much/ covering my target before i fell aslp.

fking screwed alr.
i dnt want this to get worse.

first & foremost, thankyou nameless, for pointing out my mistake.

i dont want u to be lk tt. yet, i cant give in cause i know myself so.

Jwee, i dont wna see you give up on urself cause of me, of our rs.
being w u was one of t best things ever & im sorry i had to be lk tt, to let go of wdv we built up.
i dont wna go back alr. ive hurt u too much.
& i know what i want for sure.

pls be happy too.
u'll be fine w/o me yea? u took care of me well & so tc of urself now alrights?

at the expense of studying (yet again),

new skin for th new year.
(:

i'm superb at wasting time.

it's confusing when u leave a person u loved so much for freedom and after evt, u wonder if it's right.
sorry jwee. tc of urself and rmb what i said alrights?
u'll find a better girl.

& we'll still be good friends rite?
&&. thx for evt, boy.

i admit i regret going to poly. regret taking HTM. regret not insisting on going SHATEC.regret not taking up SP's offer.

but fk it. so what if i regret?
sick and tired of having so many things to do, even if ive done so many things.
im nt lk my classmate, Aizsa, who is really good at what she does (yes, i look up to her)
neither am i lk kerry who is motivated to do well and works hard.
no. im neither of them.
& i did not wish to leave rv to try even harder in school.
i also wish i did not wish rv for a simple reason. projects.
all the time i was there, even if the proj is something chionged out last minute, it never fell short of a B.
so fk it tt i was stupid enough to leave th people there.

im nt saying poly peeps are bad. it's just tt rvians do things so differently i miss th way i was trained for 4yrs tho i hated th school and culture to th core.
look, it's freaking tiring doing so much and having much more to do.
it sucks having to give specific instructions for everything when things cldve been done perfectly well based on own discretion.
know th stress of having to do evt to th best and fearing that th blame will be put on you if anything fks up?

compiling's th whole big motherfking issue.
true there's work well done but there's those that fall far short of expectations.
imagine dealing with that proj after proj since sem 1 for NEARLY ALL th projs we have when most ppl just finish their parts and are spared.
THAT IS Y LAONIANG WANTS TO JUST HAVE A PART IN PROJS AND SETTLE IT ASAP TOO.
not tt i wldn help out if there's a need but hey, isnt it too much if im in nearly the same group for each proj and compiling's up to me as always?

i said i wldn compile anymore after th prev sem but somehow th job's always pushed to me at th end.
srsly wonder why this is so. is it because im easy to bully? or is it because i try not to pressurize ppl on the dateline cause i know it's hard having to juggle so many things?
most other frens tell me it's both. am i supposed to conclude that it's because i try to be nice and understanding that i land myself in all tt shyt tt others can avoid?
i guess it's hard for mutual respect to exist when everyone's involved in a race against time but i certainly dont expect to be made to do last min work on the day before a proj is due.
think. how many times have i said "no, i cant do this". [maybe im asking for it by giving allowances (back to the issue on not pushing pple to diedie must submit by deadline) ]. i've always tried to accomodate, pushing everything to my limit based on the various dates for proj submissions.
trust me, always having to rush when things were supp to be done long before SUCKS.
I apologise for being incompetent if that pleases you. (i swear im not pointing fingers. pls dont take offence.)

lesson learnt for th yr:
in future, i'll not be a free rider but neither will i bother so much about other stuff in a proj.
ppl who work with me in future, im sorry but u got the worse deal.
ive had enough of evt and having ppl reproach me.

random outburst. i guess im either emo or pmsing

more screwed than ever.

resume and cover letter fked up on me.
less thn 2 weeks to learn french and jap.

how much more am i willing to fk up? lk seriously..

taking time off to blog.

sadly, im still flooded with hwk.
but "happily", my lil biibii Jwee is superbly supporting and understanding(:

drove tt silly boy nutz a few nights back. ROFL.
TORRES!!
muahahaha! inside joke xPP

BABY! let's go out on saturdayy(:
[if ure nt working uhh]
lalalalalala!

Propee just made my day/night.

we lk the same songs and th same peepo!! XDD
awesomezxz!
First, it was I Know You Want Me, Silver&Gold etc
now, it is Keisha & Lady GAGA!
YAY! nw i know im nt tt weird =)

- ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says:
*i noe u wan me~ u noe i wan cha~
*LOL
*ok i kuku le
DinoBiteysaur says:
*LOL
*even got a queen sized mattress we can lay xDD
- ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says:
*LOL
*ey noobshyt
*u gt
*the song
*tik tok
*?
DinoBiteysaur says:
*EHH
*dun have
*but i lk!!
- ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says:
*walao =(
*LOL
DinoBiteysaur says:
*omg keisha
- ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says:
*ok
*yay
*LOL
*LOVE U HAHA
DinoBiteysaur says:
*her songs are awesomezxzxzx
- ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says:
*bu kui shi wo de noobshyt =)
DinoBiteysaur says:
*and i lk gaga too
*her MV is lk
*hilarious
- ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says:
*yaaa!
*LOL
DinoBiteysaur says:
*LOL
*u noe th song bad romance rite
- ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says:
*esp bad romance
*omfg
*YA
*LOL


im sooooo eggcited xD
hwk time's much btr alr!